Tired of Trying
Question
I'm really tired of being told I'm not pushing myself hard enough and I'm tired of being told that's the reason I want to end my life. I pushed away all of my friends, I called out to my parents for help and they don't believe me. They think it's the internet and I've tried so hard to convince them I need help and, to put it simply, I really just want a hug. But I'm tired of trying. I just feel like falling asleep and never waking up now.
Counselor response
We hear the pain in your voice. You are looking for support and ways to sort through the feelings that you are having. Sadness and frustration can make you feel the type of tiredness that you are describing. We know that you have been frustrated with the responses you have gotten so far. Perhaps this has been because the responses were too action orientated and did not give you enough time to fully express yourself. When talking to others, sometimes it helps to say right away, I do not want a solution. I am not ready for that. Right now, I just need support. Then tell them what that support would look like for you. You have already made a good start on identifying what you need. You need someone to listen. Someone to give you a hug.
It can be very hard if your friends and parents do not listen to your cry for help. If this continues to be the case, we encourage you to reach out to us or to a teacher or school counselor as well. You can work through this and find happiness once again. Suicide is never the answer, no problem is so big that you can't work through it. You have the power to do this and you do not have to go through it alone, call us today. We can help you develop coping skills and find resources in your community and if you like, we could talk to your parents for you to let them know you need their help.
Give us a call and talk to one of our crisis counselors, the number here at the Boys Town National Hotline is 1-800-448-3000. You can also get a hold of a crisis counselor by texting or chatting through www.yourlifeyourvoice.org.