Nothing To Do

I feel like there's nothing for me to do. School got canceled which means sports got canceled as well and those are the only things that keep my mind occupied and make me not think of the sad things. All day I've been so sad because I'm not gunna do anything I'm just gunna feel so sad and alone for this next month since I have no phone and I can't even occupy my mind by texting my friends or going out. And swim - the one thing that made me feel good was taken away from me. I feel so resentful against the world and I just wish I could smoke to help me feel better but I can't do that since I got in trouble. I feel like there's nothing for me to do. My mom doesn't even trust me anymore which I get it but it still sucks and makes me feel like shit. I just wish things could go back to normal..where I could smoke or go to practice to help me feel better. I don't even have any motivation to do anything right now. I just want to cry and go to sleep.