800-448-3000Hope Is Lost
Question
I'm not exactly sure what to type. I've been contemplating suicide for the past few weeks, I've been depressed for a couple years but recently I've been seriously considering suicide I'm trying this before I seriously start planning and attempting tho. I just want to be happy but I can't no matter how hard I try. 3 years of trying and nothing. No improvement. I could even go as far as saying it's gotten worse. Hope is lost for me. But I'm stubborn so here I am.
Counselor response
It sounds like you have been really struggling recently so it is good that you are opening up about how intense your thoughts are getting and are seeking help. We are glad that you have been stubborn, this shows your inner will to live, to fight through these feelings to find healing. Since you are feeling suicidal it would probably be best if you contacted one of our counselors by phone or get yourself to a hospital if you cannot stay safe. Our counselors are available 24/7 at 1-800-448-3000 every day of the year so please do not hesitate to call as we would like to help you with advice or resources in your area.
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Please keep yourself safe and keep reaching out when you feel this way. You have clearly been fighting for a long time to try and make your life better so do not give up at this point when there is so much help available. Please let us help you get started down the path to feeling better and getting some real help. Give us a call or reply back so we can discuss what has been going on in your life the last few years to have you feeling so hopeless at this time. There is always hope for a better happier life so call anytime so we can start exploring some coping skills and resources with you.
Sincerely John,
Crisis Counselor