Don't Want To Hurt My Dad

Thanks for reaching out.  It sounds like you are trying to find a balance between being honest with your Dad, but sticking to your grounds about moving out.  The stress from a big decision like this can be very harsh, but suicide is not the answer.  That just ends you and fixes nothing.  In fact, both of your parents would be devastated.  There are some hard choices to be made, but if your suicidal thoughts continue to creep up as an option, please make a promise to yourself that you will go get help, tell your parents, or call the hotline before you would ever take any action on that.

You mentioned that your Dad was hurt by the conversation last night.  If there is something you need to clear up about last night, do it.  If there is an apology in order, give it, if you wish you would of approached it a different way, let him know that, but nothing will get solved without honesty either. 

It is clear that you care about him, so if you do make this move, is there a plan for visiting, getting together with him, and keeping communication open.  Maybe that needs to be part of the next discussion as it does not sound like it is your intention to no longer see him.

Take your time to think things through too.  When it comes to a big transition like this, well thought out plans usually go more smoothly than any plans made by the seat of your pants.  If you need to talk this through more you certainly can email again or even text or chat during the hours listed below.  We hope that your talk goes ok.  Keep safe, and keep in touch.

Laura, Crisis Counselor